I am The Other Evil...

Wow...

2005-03-24T16:39:05Z

Wow, does life has its tosses and turns! This week has been probably the most emotionally charged week of my life. So much has friggin' happened its crazy. Also, a huge fuck up has finally been revealed, everybody at my job surely hates me now because of what i did and i'm sure everyone else will too once it gets around, if it does. Oh well, work is work, right? heh. anyway, i'm doing my best to make everything right with the people that i hurt and i think i'm doing an ok job. I recently discovered how much two people actually do love me, to forgive me for what i did, and for one to stay with me after i don't deserve her,well, the other too. they both forgive when i deserve to be left in the dirt. I can't truly express how happy i am. I just hope that i can get the people at work to see as they do, eh, maybe they can help. Everyone deserves 2nd, or in my case 3rd, chances....oh well. I plan on doing everything right from this point on, so wish me luck, everyone can change...see you all in school Monday.

Nate

To Meg

2005-03-19T15:20:35Z

Hye, i've been trying to get in tough with you throught email bvut it keeps coming back saying i have the wrong email address so i figured you read this a lot. I really need to talk to you about whats going on and i don't want to do it in a public forum like this, so i'd rather use email since i don't have access to my phone..plese, baby...i really want to talk...

Love you, Truly, No matter whats been said, i do...

Nate

New Live Journal

2005-01-20T01:20:24Z

Everyone check out my livejournal!

Lorna did it for me. It's night crawler.

Doing great.

Still don't have the internet, so it wont be for a while until i post.

Bye all

There you go, Lorn

2005-01-06T20:26:50Z

Nathaniel Woodard
Period 2
Mr. Selfe
1/6/05

Much Ado about Relationships

In Shakespeare’s famous play, Much Ado about Nothing, there are two relationships that play a major role in play, the relationships of Hero and Claudio and that of Benedict and Beatrice.
The two relationships are different in few ways, at least at the beginning. From the start of the play, Claudio was struck down by love as revealed from the following,” In mine eye she is the sweetest lady that ever I looked on” (I, 1,151) and his immediate intentions were depicted here with “I would scarce trust myself though I had sworn the contrary, if Hero would be my wife”(I, 1, 158). While the exact opposite with Benedict, who was not sure of his feelings for Beatrice until he was tricked into them by the Prince, Claudio and Leonato. The love is same and true for the women, with Hero falling for Claudio straightway while Beatrice was tricked into her feelings, as the same as Benedict.
However, the relationships are also similar, especially since they both end in the play with their individual marriages. Other similarities are the couples’ undying devotion to their partners, after Beatrice and Benedict come to their senses and fall in love with each other. Benedict shows this when he agrees to kill Claudio for Beatrice shown “I will challenge him and kiss your hand, and so I leave you. By this hand, Claudio shall render me a dear account.”(IV, 2, 325). The similarities end there, with the two relationships coming together on different terms with four people as different as they can possibly be.

i'm here!

2004-11-24T12:05:44Z

well, i just wanted to post to let my girls know i made it to Georgia alright. Turns out Lorna, i did leave after work. I was just really getting to bed when my dad and brother started walking around and i was like, "what the hell?" and they said, "we're leaving" so we through everything in the van and left. of course, i laid down and slep the whole way, woke up and we were here around 6 AM. I would say something, but i believe Megs post pretty much covered all the bases. well, i'll post later. Till then...

Nate

Setting the record straight

2004-11-10T18:55:25Z

Setting the record straight:

I know I don't post very often, it's kinda hard to post without the internet. But I know this is the medium used by most people that this involves, so I'll do this here. And as regrettable as it may be, If I lose friends, or even my girlfriend, well, then it's the price I'm willing to pay for this.

The thing is: Lorna isn't "crazy." It may seem like she is, but there is so much pulling her from all sides. If I had to deal with half of the shit she does, I'd be "crazy" too. I feel that I'm the only person who can stand up on this because I'm the only person to have seen everything Lorna goes through. Lorna's issues can be divided as follows: 1/4 home life, 1/4 school, and 1/2... me.

Everyone who knows Lorna knows how actually crazy her mother really is and it's because of her mother's psyco-ness that everyone sees Lorna do crazy things. See: Lorna isn't allowed to vent in anyway at home. He mother won't let her. She's not allowed to cry because her parents think she's "breaking down." Forget yelling at anything or hitting anything. So it all gets bottled up until the pressure bursts, and it's so much pressure she gets a little violent. And usually it's taken out on me for one of two reasons: I am the only person who is there for her. No matter what, so I'm there when she explodes and usually the reason she needs to vent is because of my garbage. Lorna keying my back is a fine example of this, she needed to lash out.. and I was there, and I'll get into why later. Her trying to hit me with her car is highly exaggerated. When I phrased it that way, I didn't think anyone would take me seriously. She made it look like she was going to hit me, but she stopped way before she even got close to me.

Everyone knows how stressful school is so I'm not going into that too much, but it being senior year is really bothering her. Lorna is afraid of change, and in less than a year, her world is going to be turned upside down.

The biggest thing that makes Lorna seem "crazy" is me. Frankly, I made her this way because of everything that's taken place these past six months. See. she isn't "crazy." She's just, in a word, confused.
This is the part where I worry about peoples feelings changing, losing friends and the girlfriend, but I really want Lorna's reputation repaired even at the cost of mine. Everyone who knows me, knows that I truly care about Megan, and I care about her a lot. However, if she loves me as much as she says she does, then none of this will matter and she'll stay. See, the reason Lorna is so confused is because of things I've said. While they are not as strong as she would like, I still have feelings for Lorna.

The best way to equate this is to go back a year or so. When I first started dating Lorna, I still had feelings for Stephanie. But I told Lorna and we dealt with them. I am in the same situation with Megan. My feelings with Stephanie didn't affect my relationship with Lorna, and as of yet I'm not letting them affect Me and Megan anymore then they are. Now that's said, hopefully Megan will stay.

Now, back to topic. Lorna knows how I feel about her because she and I are the close. Now can we see why she's confused? She KNOWS I care for her still, but won't date her. Can anyone see why she is the way she is? I WOULD BE THE SAME WAY! Now, I hope all of this is clear, that she is no way "crazy." I still care for her and she knows, yet everyday she sees me hug, hold, and kiss Megan. Frankly, It would drive my "crazy" too.

Now that should be fixed. Everyone knows everything that's affecting Lorna. She is just confused about me, she can't vent, and school sucks as it always has. It all adds up. Everyone. She is not "crazy." Instead of calling her "crazy," try to comfort her, understand. She needs all the friends she can get. I know I'm a horrible person for all I've done and am still doing to her. She is not "crazy" or "sick." I hope all of you see and understand this now. Hopefully, I'll keep Megan and all my friends, but I'll gladly give it all up to see Lorna;s reputation back. I really am sorry to Lorna, and to all I may hurt with this, but I had to get it out. She's my best friend, I don't want her hurt anymore. So everyone, try to help and not hurt her anymore.

Again,Sorry to all.

Nate Woodard

Guess Who!

2004-09-06T04:00:05Z

You know what,

This is >cough< Nate.
Of all the times i am at Lornas House, Or Megans house i never post.
So I am posting now.
My life is okay.
Nothing out of the ordinary.
Still dating Megan.
Still working at Mc Donalds.
Still doing okay in School.

Actually now i see what nate,i mean I, Why I never post.
Nothing ever happens.

Well
I better go.

Bye

gunsforhire @ 2004-06-23T15:56:00

2004-06-23T20:21:29Z

YOUR
*First Name: Nathaniel
*Last Name: Woodard
*Middle name: Hugh
*Sex: male
*Sexual Preference: girls
*Production Date: December 2, 1986
*Birth Place: Dublin...Georgia, not Ireland
*Ethnic Background: Native American
*I.Q.: 157
*Number of Siblings: 2
*Height: 5'5"
*Hair Color: Brown
*Eye Color: brown
*Skin Color: tan
*Religion: Born Baptist
*Church: n/a
*Pets: Merry, my kitty

HAVE YOU EVER
*Ran away: ...kinda
*Broken someone's heart: yes
*Been in love: yes
*Cried when someone died: yes
*Wanted someone else to die: yes
*Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yes
*Broken a bone: nope
*Lied: yes
*Skipped School: yeah
*Been arrested: technically, no
*Bullied someone: yes
*Raped someone: no
*Been Raped: no
*Driven underaged: yes
*Been in a car accident: a few
*Wanted to commit suicide: no

WHICH IS BETTER:
*Coke or Pepsi: coke
*Sprite or 7UP: 7UP
*Chocolate or Vinella: vanilla
*Skittle or M-n-Ms: m and ms
*Movies or Dinner: both
*Scruff or Clean shaved: scruff
*Quiet or Loud: depends on the situation...
*Blondes or Brunettes: both
*Bitchy or Slutty: neither
*Tall or Short: medium
*Pants or Shorts: pants
*T-shirt or button up: t shirt
*What do you notice first of the opposite sex: eyes, voice
*Have you ever gotten drunk: no

WHAT IS (your favorite):
*Your Good Luck Charm: don't have one
*Lucky Number: 12
*Person You Hate Most: ...every one knows
*Best Thing That Has Happened:
*Color: Black
*Smell: winter green
*Movie: Knockaround Guys
*Subject in school: history
*Juice: Apple
*Cars: Aston-Martin DB9
*Ice Cream: Heavenly Hash
*Season: Winter
*Holiday: Christmas
*Day of the week: thursday
*Kind of weather you enjoy the most: dark
*Breakfast Foods: Egg sandwiches
*Songs: too many to list
*Foods: Sandwiches
*Comedians: George Carlin
*Shows: Fairly Odd Parents, CSI:
*Actors: Tom Selleck
*Actresses: Julia Roberts
*Kind of music: Rock
*Sport: Boxing, UFC
*Mcdonalds or Burger King: uh...i'm biased...Burger King, work at McD's
*Polo, Nautica, or Tommy: Polo
*Nike, Reebok, or Adidas: Rockport
*Video Games: Legend of Zelda, Mike Tyson's Punch Out (long live NES!!!)
*Favorite flower:

WHO
*makes you laugh the most: depends
*makes you smile the most: refer to above
*can make you feel better no matter what: Merry
*has a crush on you: i only know of one...
*Do You Have A Crush On Someone: ...er, plead the fif
*Who Has it easier? lots of people
*Gives you a funny feeling when you see them: lots of people

DO YOU EVER:
*Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: no.
*Save AOL conversations: no
*Save Emails: some
*Wish you were someone else: don't we all?
*Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: sure
BEST:
*Hairstyle: on me? short and spiky
*Book: The Sword Of Truth Books
*Cologne: Stetson
HAVE YOU:
*Sky dived: no.
*Been on an airplane?: yes
*Been out of state? yes
*Fallen for your best friend?: yes, it seems all the time
*Been in love?: yes
*Been in lust?: yes
*Used someone?: yes
*Cheated on someone? yes
*Done something you regret?: oh yes
*Have you ever colored your hair? not yet
*Have tattoos? not yet
*Have piercings? none yet
*Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes
*Own a webcam? no
*Ever get off the damn computer? yes

Have you/do you/are you...
*Stolen anything? yes
*Smoke? yes, i have
*Schizophrenic? nope
*Obsessive? yes, kinda
*Panic? yes
*Confused bout who you love? occasionally

gunsforhire @ 2004-06-17T10:16:00

2004-06-17T14:39:48Z

Full name: Nathaniel Hugh Woodard
Age: 17
Sex: male
Date of birth: 12-02-86
Place of birth: Dublin...Georgia
Home town: port richey
Home state: florida
Eye color: dark brown
Hair color: browninsh-back
Hair length: spiky short
Height: 5'5
Weight: 155 lbs
Skin tone: medium
Religion: born baptist
Shoe size: dpends on the shoe:
Rockports:8
Cowboy Boots: 7 1/2
sneakers:9

*Favorites*

Color: blue, black, and grey
Number: 12
Letter: X
Word: redundent
Animal: grey wolf
Love song: NExt Time I Fall In Love - Peter Cetera and Amy Grant
Rock song: too many...
Rap song: Forgot About Dre - Eminim and Dr. Dre
Oldies song: Louie, Louie
Movie: Knockaround Guys
TV show: Fairly Odd Parents
Car: Jaguar XJS
Flower: n/a
Brand of clothing: Clavin klien pants and Alfani shirts
Food: sandwiches
Drink: Diet Coke
Alcoholic drink: Rolling Coke (don't ask...)
Scent: Black by Kenneth Cole
Phrase or quote: At the end of the game, both the king and pawn return to the same box
Band or group: Linkin Park, Offspring, Trapt
Singer: Michael Crawford
CD: Hybrid Theory - Linkin Park, or Hypnotize The Moon - Clay Walker
Restaraunt: anthonys
Day of the week: thursday
Month: december
Holiday: christmas
Time of the day: night
Sport: boxing
Sports team: Lightning
Athlete: Randy Coutore
Deodorant: Degree
Shampoo: Tea Tree by Paul Mitchell
Soap: Lever 2000, for all 2000 parts
Candy: snickers
Color M&M: brown

*About you*

Do you drink? well, its necessary to live so....Alchol, occasionally
Do you smoke? not anymore
Do you party? no
Are you a virgin? mebbe...
Do you have a car? yes
What school do you attend? Ridgewood
Do you have a job? yes
Do you have a crush? no
Are you in love? yes
Have you ever been dumped? yes
Have you ever dumped someone? yep
Are you a heart breaker? duh
How many friends do you have? more then 10
Do you have a best friend? Lorna
Do you plan on going to college some day? yes
What do you wanna be when you get older? no idea, have a few ideas though
What is your ideal job? U.S. Marshal
Where do you live? florida
Where would you rather live? more north
Are you smart? depends, books, yes. Street, kinda. Common Sense, nil.
Are you stupid? can be
Are you nice to others? do i want something?
Are they nice to you? not all
How many times have you been stabbed in the back? a few...
Do you stab people in the back? i try not to...but i can be ruthless
Are you forgiving? depends
Do you trust people? more than i should
Do you trust yourself? yes
Do you love your parents? yes
Do you fight with them? yes
Do you have any siblings? brother, sister, step-sister, and step-bother
Do you have any pets? merry!
Do you love them? very much
Do you love yourself? every night

*Either Or*

Black or white? black
Yes or no? yes
Up or down? up
Right or left? right
Right or wrong? right
In or out? in
Smile or frown? smile
High or low? high
Love or hate? love
Live or die? live
Truth or lies? truth
Broken or fixed? fixed
Laid back or paranoid? laid back
Safe or out? out
Tall or short? short
Baseball or basketball? basketball
Hockey or tennis? hockey
Swimming or running? running
Skittles or M&M's? m&ms
Soda or juice? soda
Scream or shout? shout
Above or below? both
Boats or cars? car
Road or oceans? ocean
Forgive or forget? forget

*Say the first thing that comes to your mind*

Heart: attack
Cold: wet
Giant: cat
Fruit: mark
Colors: crayons
Sky: dive
Leave: tree, he he
Broken: fixed
Full: bladder
Water: pissed
Stars: wars
Empty: ow
Darkness: i beleieve in a thing called love...
Bright: light
Love: good
Hate: bad
Believe: sure
God: man upstairs
Truth: good
Save: me
End: doesn't even matter

Nate

my turn...

2004-06-14T18:19:35Z

helo again, now its my turn to play the "guess the buddy" game!...actually, Lorna was bugging me to post, and this looked like it would be okay...

~ needless to say, you scare me..a lot. i've noticed its always the short ones..

~ i don't care what you say...you're sick. cat-killer...

~ If you don't want to go by yourself, i'll go bra shopping with you...having someone there helps.

~ look, you don't need to be embarrassed, small pee-pee's are ok, they need love too.

~ I doubt you'll remmeber, but i still want to kill that bird...

~THIEF!!! Let's hear a Tribal Yell!

~ Sorry, but that jacket felt like wearing a tarp...have you hosed it down yet?

~ What to say? Stalker...

have fun...even tho they're kinda obvious...oh well

Nate

first post

2004-06-06T03:44:25Z

this survey thing shall be first....

last person who.
.x. slept in your bed - i think...does the dog count?
.x. saw you cry - Megan
.x. made you cry - Lorna
.x. spent the night at your house - Jose and Bacon, that was an awesome weekend
.x. you shared a drink with - as in alcholic? Lorna and Megan
.x. you went to the movies with - Dad
.x. you went to the mall with - Megan
.x. yelled at you - Dad
.x. sent you an e-mail - Some college

have you ever.
.x. said "i love you" - Yes
.x. been to new york? - never
.x. been to florida? - yes
.x. california? - no
.x. danced naked - yes
.x. dreamed something? - yes

.x. last time you went out of the state- uh, coming home tomorrow
.x. lucky number - i like 12
.x. things you like in a girl/guy - eyes, ability to make me laugh, and mostly, the ability to put up with me
.x. weirdest thing about you?- uh...people say my laugh
.x. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? - yes
.x. what do you think of ouija board? - stupid
.x. what book are you reading now? - Start Wars: New Jedi Order: Force Heretic III: Reunion
.x. what's on your mouse pad? - now? puppies
.x. favorite board game? - Stratigo
.x. favorite magazine? - Maxim or Guns and Ammo
.x. favorite sound? - uh...good question, never thought about it
.x. worst feeling in the world? - the feeling you get when you realize you have no friends...
.x. what is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? - time to start again
.x. do you like scary or exciting roller coasters? both
.x. how many rings before you answer? 2
.x. future daughter's name? charlie
.x. future son's name? hmmm, i like Han or Chris
.x. chocolate or vanilla? vanilla
.x. do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no
.x. if you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? hmm, LEO
.x. what are you going to do after you finish this survey? - bed
.x. what was the last food you ate? turkey sandwich
.x. you bored? not really
.x. how many buddies are on? - 1, not at home though
.x. last movie you saw? Troy
.x. three things you are often complimented for: arms
.x. you get embarrassed when: i don't
.x. what upsets you: many things
.x. you keep a diary: no
.x. you like to cook: yes
.x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yep
.x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: no
.x. you bite your fingernails: yes
.x. you believe in love: yeah

who is...?
.x. the sexiest person of the opposite sex: toughie, Saira Mohan
.x. the weirdest person you know: Lorna
.x. the loudest person you know: megan
.x. your close friends: Lorna, Megan, Bacon
.x. the person that knows the most about you: Lorna

what is...?
.x. your most overused phrase on im: lolo or lmao
.x. last image/thought you go to sleep with: nothing really
.x. your best feature: arms
.x. inside joke: waaaaaaaay too many
.x. take a shower everyday: yes
.x. have a (any) crush (es): nah
.x. think you've been in love: yes
.x. want to get married: yes
.x. have any tattoos/where?: nope
.x. piercing/where?: none, yet
.x. get along with you parents: yes

FAVORITES...
NUMBER: 12
COLOR: black, blue, grey
DAY: thursday
MONTH: December
SONG(S): too many genres
FOOD: sandwiches
SEASON: fall
DRINK: Diet Coke

[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]
CRIED?: no
HELPED SOMEONE?: yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: no
SAID, "I LOVE YOU"??: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: yes
MISSED AN EX?: yes
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yes
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: no
MISSED SOMEONE?: yes
HUGGED SOMEONE?: no
KISSED SOMEONE?: no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: no

there we go...don't expect me to post too often...witht he lack of internet at home and everything...

Nate